Diary: 2024-03-16

 

I am so mad right now I could scream. Actually, I want to kill someone, but I have seen the orange jumpsuits they make you wear in prison and that is not a good color on me.  I cannot believe he did that to me. I cannot believe I fell for it.

The day started off great. I did sleep in as It was a very late night last night. I spent the day working around the house and then did some grocery shopping. I even sat down and figured out what I am going to do for my next Recipe Blog post (a clam chowder recipe from my grandma). At three, I got dressed and then headed over to Maria's as we were going to ride together to the concert.

We got to the school a half hour before the concert and I was able to see Jesus and get a hug from him. (I love when he calls me his Aunt Katie.) After that we headed into the school gymnasium to find a seat. I had forgotten how uncomfortable seats in school can be. I found myself squirming in my seat a lot before the evening was over.

The middle school band and choir began the evening. I cannot say they were perfect as there were more than a couple of missed notes, but seeing the excited looks on their faces made it all worth it. And, of course, Jesus was the best in the whole band. (A totally bias opinion.) When they were done, there was a short intermission while the high school kids took the stage. They kept the middle school kids backstage for the high school performance. I think it was so the middle school parent would have to stay for the whole concert. 

When the concert ended (and yes the high school kids were better than the middle school kids), we headed towards the stage to find Jesus. He was grinning from ear to ear and carrying his trombone in its case. We all told him how great he did and he was so happy. However, this is where my evening went down hill. As we were standing there talking, I looked around and saw someone that looked like Lee. After he turned, I saw it was him. He said he was working this weekend so I just assumed he must have a niece or nephew and took a break to come watch him/her play. I excused myself and walked towards him, happy to see him. I was almost to him when I stopped in my tracks. I was to his side and back, so he had not seen me, but I was close enough to overhear him. What stopped me in my tracks was a girl, about the same age as Jesus, came running up to him and said, "Daddy, Daddy, what did you think? How did I do?" Lee bent down, picked up the little girl and said, "Sweetie, you were the best one up there." The little girl then turned to a woman standing next to Lee who was also holding a small child, and said, "What did you think Mommy?" The reply made the little girl smile but made me see red. After the shock quickly wore off, I took a closer look on this left and it was sporting something that was not there before: a wedding ring. I just stood there, mouth agape. However, when I saw his wife kiss him and say "I am so glad you didn't have to work this weekend," I had to turn and leave. I was so mad and so upset. 

I went back to Maria and told her we needed to leave. She could tell something was wrong and on the way home, I told her everything. She didn't drive me home. Instead, we stopped and got a pizza and a few bottles of wine and went to her place. She decided that I shouldn't be left alone tonight. So we spent the evening eating pizza, getting drunk, crying (it was mostly me doing the crying), and plotting all the ways we could get revenge on the piece of shit. We even listen to the song "Earl" by the Dixie Chicks for some inspiration.

I am so upset right now, I just want to die. I trusted him and he lied to me. Worse, he tricked me into being the one thing I never wanted to be, the other woman. I feel so disgusting and dirty and betrayed. Why do I always seem to date losers?

Cheers for now.